The Coffeehouse

okay, sometimes i feel guilty for thinking bad things (not naughty! bad as in witchy :p) and i would like to know if it's normal, ie. who else has evil thoughts? such as.....

- when you hear someone else's bad news and you smile cause it makes you happy. this actually happened to me today. my mom told me some news about this girl i reeaaalllyyy dislike for many reasons, and my mom knows i don't like her and when she told me, i almost said "good", but i realized it was mean and told my mom she shouldn't have told me, because it will be very difficult not to relish in her mishap...eeekk. what's worse is that she doesn't know i don't like her, and i even bummed a ride off of her a couple of weeks ago....yes, i was THAT desperate, and it was torture trying to keep a friendly conversation going in the car...

- when you're so angry at person X that you just wanna take that pen in your hand and stab person X in the neck (joe pesci-casino style), heart, eyes, anywhere, or just throw something at them really hard and you can feel how it will disfigure their face! i was so mad at this guy once, i wanted to throw my scalding hot tea at him and i almost did, but he doesn't know it. this story is actually veeeerrrry vaguely related to the one above :p

- give someone the oh so powerful "evil eye". i'd like to think i never give anyone the evil eye, but unfortunately, i think i may have once or twice (unintentionally of course) and the bad thing is you don't even realize you're doing it.

but i'm really a very nice person!! really.... ;)

the library is home to a multitude of paper products. books, magazines, newspapers, maps. and there's also different types of paper. recycled (woho! although it usually does have that distinct dumpster smell, woho nonetheless!), glossy, white, coloured....y'know, paper. i was looking for a book in the philosophy section today and i came across another paper product that was available in our university library... 

yes, i pocketed it, but only because i find that man on the package so irresistible. red bandanas and suspenders are hott...:p

as soon as i found it, i knew i was in the cooler section of the library and i sat myself down and picked up a 1906 copy of "Plato's Republic" and had a good time reading a bunch of latin names like Cephalus, Polemarchus, and Thrasymachus...this was probably the only thing my latin class was good for...

maybe i should add it to my anti-stress package ;) .....

some people are plain genius....

two of my favourite things: sushi and vector graphics...

^ that's a freakin sushi laptop!!

guys, there's chocolate sushi....

and what type of sushi are you?

never tried those before...

i think i've redeemed myself and i am no longer an idiot! i uninstalled msn messenger and i feel liberated! i was getting ready to go to bed and the thought just popped into my head and there i was, uninstalling it, not hesitating for even a milli-second. what really annoyed me was that the program was listed as "rarely" used (my foot!). so it's back to the good ole days of instant emailing, deal with it!!

today at work, i found the craziest book. i already vented to gillioz, but i feel the need to share it with the rest of the global population. it's called (don't hold your breath) "islamic homosexualities". now, i like to think of myself as a pretty rational and fair person, but can i just tell you how much social research sucks?! it sucks. i believe it to be the most useless, uncredible, biased, waste of time and money out there. it's qualitative research, and basically, no matter how much you explain your personal biases as a researcher and the biases of every god-damn biotic and abiotic thing associated with your subject, not to mention historical connotations, linguistics and discourse development, you're research remains as every bit as subjective. now that we've established MY biases on the issue, i will proceed to tell you why this book is crazy besides simply that it is qualitative research and a literary review. 1) of the 22 articles/chapters, only 4 are written by muslims insider/outsider perspectives?). 2) they have extensive (page-long) quotes from random teenagers they interview in the streets of saudi arabia, turkey, iran, and pakistan because apparently, these random teens are experts on muslim men's sexual exploitation of young boys. 3) it's all based on records from the ottoman empire, and to that i ask "did these random teens time-travel from the ottoman empire?!". you know what, i don't mind the subject, i really don't, cause there's bound to be a few loony muslims out there and their stories stand out and lead to all kinds of sociological theories, i understand that. what i don't understand is the crappy research skills these guys had and how they managed to get it published.....idiots, they must use msn a lot... 

i hereby proclaim queenie [me] as (this kinda hurts to say) an idiot because due to my week long procrastination:

- i have waited until 2 am monday morning to do homework

- i missed the deadline for three summer internship positions because of plain stupidity, the job descriptions were saved in a word document entitled "jobs" on my desktop

- i just realized i have a bunch of very important emails to send

- i still need to wrap a birthday present for my friend

who knows what else i might remember to do that had to be done 5 days ago...the night..err, morning is still young...

i was on the subway, making my way downtown.
the sun was warm, the sky was blue and cloudless.
just the way the sun was shining into the train,
and how peaceful things looked in the city,
i couldn't help but think, everything's perfect.

i've been getting so much junk lately from "Katelyn Sherman", "Marty Hager", "Ryan Nasser" and from friends and family too. im so mad!! i wouldn't be as mad if it was a daily occurence, but this is happening all of the sudden. i used to never get spam mail, and most of the people i know, don't forward crap to me, but then this past week, i must've gotten a gazillion "FWD:fwd:Fwd:fWD:FWD: cHeCk tHis OUt! mEGa KeWL, CutE!" or some generic foward subject. i even wish they would live up to their names, but they just turn out to be some stupid chain letters (do you not absolutely hate it when you get "religious" chain letters?! forward this to all the muslims in the freakin world, or God will not answer your prayers), or filled with pictures of puppies and kittens (they have lost their cute-appeal), or those really helpful ones warning me that i'll have to start paying to use MSN Messenger:

Hi everybody, here is a true story. The use of msn and hotmail will cost money from summer 2006. If you send this message to 18 different people from your list your little msn icon will become blue and that will make it free for you. If you dont believe me go on (www.msn.com) and see it yourself.
Dont foward this message, copy paste it so people will actually read it.

shut up! then, i also got invited to some yahoogroup that's for people from this specific village in pakistan. i have no idea who or why i got invited, but i ignored it cause, i'm not from that village in pakistan. but for some reason, i still got subscribed to the listserv, and now i'm getting a whole lot of really cheesy forwards from them as well...grrrr....make it stop!!!

okay, maybe we really shouldn't tear down forwardgarden.com because i just found a pick-up line in one of the forwards that is so cheesy, i'd probably use it :p : are you made of caffeine because you kept me up all night?
 

the most beautiful thing in the world is when it snows and the sun is shining.....

i went skiing yesterday....

i woke up this morning to pain-induced paralysis. i've been sore since last night and i couldn't even change sleeping positions because of the pain..but this morning, i couldn't get out of bed and i was home alone and there was no one to help me.. took me a couple of minutes to sit up..and then standing up was the REAL problem. once i stood up, i knew there was no way in heaven and hell i could sit down again without causing more bodily harm. i had to either stand the entire day, or sit the entire day. it was like that time i tried out for the volleyball team and the damn coaches worked me so hard, i couldn't go up or down the stairs and i had to choose one floor of my house to live in for a while. ..but i've learned a trick, i just have to change from stand/sit reaaaally reaallly fast, and i will only have to endure one second of humongous, gigantic pain :D

despite all that, skiing was fun!! i got me some battlescars, but my friends assured me it looks cool, makes me look tuff, and if i had kept the bandaid, i would've looked like nelly...uh huh. 

gil, because she's such a cool person and she knows how ugly i can get when my pride is hurt, will tell you how i was the ski-goddess and that i OWNED those slopes, and i was going down those steep hills like a pro, when all of the sudden, a piece of ice appeared in my way, and there was just no way to avoid it, ABSOLUTELY no way, cause y'know, pro-champ me was going at super speed, and i hit it and tumbled and scraped my face a little.

what really happened was less exciting. i was finally making my way down the smallest hill without falling and stopping at the bottom in really cool ways (woho!), so i went up again and as i was skiing my way down, i lost my balance and my left ski pole got stuck in the snow which caused me to trip and basically, my face landed on the top part of the pole and i fell....it doesnt look too bad now, and thank god i was wearing sunglasses and it missed my eye, but when it first happened, i felt like someone threw a rock at my face, and i thought it was just a bruise, but then i realized i got scraped and there was a little blood. it's better today, but still hurts.... 

 this is the blue mountain ski resort....

 ^  one boot on, those boots are heavvvyyyy....

^ see that black rubber handle on the poles? i hit my face right at the top part of it.....

so that was my skiing adventure. it was fun, but i'll wait until i am un-sore again to decide whether i ever want to do it in my life again....ever...

i felt really crummy the entire day...so i ended up going to the library a little while ago and raided the movie and music section and then picked up some reading material, because after all, how can you go the library and NOT pick up a BOOK?? it's a long list but should keep me busy from focusing on my papers and projects :p

1) ferris bueller's day off - it's a law, you must watch it on your days off....

2) annie hall - because i've never seen it

3) romeo and juliet - the one with the reaaally hot romeo

4) what dreams may come - robin williams...period..

5) west side story - i want to make fun of those gang ballet dances...over and over again :p

6) monsieur ibrahim - omar sharif in a french movie, looks interesting

music:

1) where we live - campaign for universal right to clean air & clean water (it was calling out to the tree-hugger in me)

2) sam roberts - the inhuman condition (what ever happened to him?)

3) music from "gilmore girls" ( no comment :D)

4) ray charles - genius loves company (duets, it looked like a good cd)

and the one book i got was on a lightening loan (maximum of 7 days, no renewal) which was john grisham's "the broker" and i'm reaaaallly hoping it doesn't suck....i used to LIVE off his books, but then they got crappier and crappier. his bestest book was "the runaway jury" about tobacoo litigation. yes, they did make a movie out of it, but changed the whole thing to be around gun-control...idiots...i refuse to watch it..

and i decided to treat my crummy self to some sushi and yummy vanilla chai smoothie (uh huh, yeah, you read right, YUMMYYY!! pssshh)...

From :  instructor
Sent :  February 12, 2006 2:19:14 PM
To :  queenie
Subject :  RE: Assignment 2 
 
Sure, no problem.

There will be no penalty.

regards.

-----Original Message-----
From: queenie
Sent: Saturday, February 11, 2006 3:40 PM
To: instructor
Subject: Assignment 2

Hi [instructor dude],

Attached is Assignment 2. Sorry for sending it so late, I ran into some complications.

Thanks,
queenie

<does a little jig>...cool, huh! i didn't even ask for no penalty and it was due on thursday....learn from me people, learn!

so now that i got my stupid assignment out of the way, i can enjoy READING WEEK and....read...i hope to be making my "to do" list today (right) and get cracking at some upcoming papers (uh huh)..don't have much in the way of recreation planned except for hitting the slopes on wednesday. i'm really excited! i've never gone skiing before because i was too scared from what i'd seen on extreme sports programs, but apparently, there's these things called bunny hills for first time skiing idiots like me and small children. i just hope it snows cause this girl in my class was telling me how she skiied on fake snow once and she fell and it was rough and granular and skinned half her face off....let's pray really really hard for snow, ok gilly? my other plans for reading week will probably be spending some time at the hospital with my friend and her family...and maybe sleep too...ah yes...sleeeeep

in other news, my family decided to get another car, and as usual, i was the last to know.....i didn't even know they were checking out cars, but just so that i wouldn't feel left out of family affairs, they decided to call me and let me know as they were SIGNING PAPERS...this has been really getting to me, so for the past two days, i decided to camp out in the dining room hoping that it could possibly help me be "in the know"..kinda worked, but the dining room got boring...